stronger

salam..2 weeks already since kuantan..it was great once in a while to experience new ambience there..not much different pon from here, but klu stressed out, bleh pegi beach..klu kt cni, de-stress dgn ape?something to ponder about..haha.

'life doesn't makes sense sometimes'
i heard dis somewhere..can't remember where..but it really meant something..yeah, i totally agree..once in a while or most of the time, it doesn't makes sense..depends on how we see it..it will make sense if we wanted it to be..to rationalize everything that has happened, eventhough it doesn't makes sense..we're only human, though!

Many unwanted, heart-breaking events happened for this past 2 months..hope to leave it behind for good..better move on with life..long way to go..long long journey and big big responsibilities coming the way..

and it always comes back to how we see life in our own perspective..to put it behind us, or to face it..lessons in life always makes us stronger every single day..

Ramadhan coming soon..time to replenish everything..start fresh for us muslims..seeking eternal love from the only One..
till then..

imaginary

heading to kuantan dis sunday for posting..for a week!huhu..at last some air to breathe.. been suffocated every single day at dis god forsaken place..haha..looking forward to the white sandy beaches n green emerald blue sea..as i have a very vivid imaginary thoughts, i presume..it's true actually after doing some personality brain test with prof. Krassanai from Chulalongkorn Universiti, Thai..i just knew that i am a very imaginary person..euww..just unnecessary imaginations bugging me all the time..if only i can imagine future..dat's not imagining they called it premonition or sumthing like dat..

an imaginary friend?o oh..;)

ok..just a little crap to share with the community..

salam..been awhile since my last post..almost a month has passed..everything that has happened has a reason, i frequently tell myself these days..godwilling, everything will turn fine at the end of the day,insyaallah..all we can do is bringing the best of us and pray hard to the only One..usaha, ikhtiar, doa n tawakal..there's always a way if we look harder..always..stay optimistic people!n smile always..
daa~
assalamualaikum.

a little bit of patience will do

what is with people behind the wheel these days? lack a bit of patience on the road, they are. people say personalities change when u're behind the wheel. cursing and horning (is this a word?anyway,) is actually a norm eventhough u're soft spoken off-road..they say.to me,we shouldn't be selfish.we are permitted to, once in a while, but not too often people..we have to think bout others.drivers should be more considerate,not giving highlights for no good reasons, using the emergency lane during bad traffic, no horning people around for being a second late when the light turns green..patience people please..manners does matter everywhere in the world..
yeah,dat's me against malaysian drivers..hehe
bout my l'il eeny beeny life that does not give effect to others..i had a reeeaallllly unfortunate week.
at least it's over cause i'm home!!dreading to go back tomorrow..u have no idea.lost count how many times i feel like running away from everything..looking back,it's not worth it..thank god for prof.monty douggal's talk thursday afternoon..i felt dis really weird happiness..maybe bacause he's a peadiatric dentist..he's from leeds..i really enjoyed the talk..and on friday, me n nawwal had therapy at klcc.yummy!the best therapy ever!food!(eventhough it's just a rootbeer float since jpa is not on our side rite now)
what i really need now is patience.a lot of it.feeling of trying yoga or any mind relaxing thingy.or hypnotical.anything.
daa~

the final chapter of the so-called sacred saga

salam..
it has been 2 alternately unfortunate-fortunate weeks since school has started..euw..now's the time of fulfilling clinical requirements,seminars n teaching clinics..kereje,kereje,kereje!!
don't wanna bore everyone with the academic stuff..

i'm going to dread every single day for the next ten months here..hopefully it will pass like a breeze..(u wish!breezy la sgt.i can foresee hurdles n bumps ahead)

i should be optimistic these days..

checklist of the year:
5 dentures
5 crowns
2 bridges
2 anterior endos
1 endo molar
numerous adult fillings
12 peads fissure sealants
12 peads fillings
4 peads extractions
2 pulpotomies
2 URAs
10 ortho screenings
40 oral health educations
4 adult fissure sealants
2 competency tests
elective project

dis is a fraction (apart from the assignments to hand in,seminars to prepare.. ) of what's going in my head dis year..really haunts me..all dis in less than a year to finish..ya allah,give me the strength n patience..aamin

really hoping everything will turn out just fine for me to complete the 5-year saga of my life here...then,we have much more time to think bout more important things in life..survival!

May Allah bless us all with good health throughout everything..

was like a dream

today was unbelievable.

i feel unbelievably shocked cikgu rosli harun telah kembali kepada-Nya at 7.40 a.m. he was my teacher at school..taught me french..arwah had hypertension..leading to a burst aneurysm..he's young..al-fatihah..all my condolences to arwah's family..

monday is schoolday for me.after a 6-week so-called break,it was unbelievably short.now it comes to an end.i don't favour going back.at all.huh

obsession

my mom's biggest obsession is her garden n the house
well,as a homemaker,i rest my case..we're hearing lots n lots of "mama nk tuka cat ni la-boring""mama nk suruh org dtg tambah ini la,itu la""nk ganti rumput baru la" n moving furniture around is her most favourite pastime..we couldn't avoid her from going to living quarters n ikea every chance she have kalau my father returns home...haha,he can't say no kn~

yesterday,went to sg.buloh with my mom..nk carik rumput katenye so we went there as early as possible..after purchasing 200 pieces of grass pieces,yeaa-200!,i thought of heading straight home,of course being MAMA,absolutely not going to resist visiting a few nurseries there..A FEW?!~almost all nurseries actually! (dat was a really long walk,really2)LOVE U MAMA!!

anything to make my mother happy~won't risk it! actually quite nice strolling across the millions and millions of flowers there..my mom's face was gleaming all the way-see how the greenery gives that kind of effect to people?if properly nurtured n everything..(yes,same with humans)

then,on the way home we went pass Hospital Sg.Buloh just near by the nurseries~out of the blue my mom blurted "why don't mntk posting kt cni"..as usual agree je la with her..then she added "senang nanti, mama pesan je beli bunga kt cni everytime u blk rumah"..u see how obsessed my mom is? well actually the love for nature n greens ni is in our blood (i doubt it in my blood~suke indulge je bunge2 ni tp tk reti nk jage) arwah granny n arwah paklong will spend most of the time at the garden je..more than in the house!

well, for me, i don't have any obsessions..hmmm..yeah no.full stop.
being obsessed to achieve sumthing is good in some sort of angle.it gives u the drive.
but hands down, i prefer being only average..not good eh..
being average is fine in a way.when what we're done is the best that we could do.

have said.
aios amigo!(amigo?)

sumthing to share with (very inspiring song by dewa_hadapi dgn senyuman)